tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59523890351461140312024-03-19T05:31:18.561-07:00The Amateur PoetThis blog was created for anyone who enjoys reading. I write poetry and short fiction and enjoy getting feedback. I am constantly trying to improve - thanks for reading! -JackieJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.comBlogger86125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-17175149740760759142013-07-18T07:26:00.001-07:002013-07-18T07:26:47.986-07:00Song Bird<span style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">It sings melodiously</span><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">high up on the tree, its voice</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">fills the air with nostalgia.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">Memories from yesterdays</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">when we thought we knew it all</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">and frolicked to harmonies</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">played out by hundreds of them.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">The sounds of orchestral bliss,</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">that followed us to the ground</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">where we would lie on the grass </div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">dreaming of what they could do</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">with those calls of emotion.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">Then they would fly away fast,</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">in mass movement together</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">in an extraordinary </div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">escape from the whistler</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">who thought they might understand.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">Perhaps they did; flew away</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">just to tell the other birds</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">what the girl wanted to say:</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">that she loved their songs always,</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">and wanted them just to stay.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">But then the sun would go down,</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">and we would run home to eat</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">forgetting about the one</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">who stayed to sing a lonesome</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">melody for the girl who </div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">understood what true love was:</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">it was you and me in dreams</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">from the future or the past.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">We knew the birds and the bees</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">would lead us to each other </div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">someday, sending us love songs.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">That's what I imagine now,</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">wIth the solitary bird</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">high up on it's lonely perch,</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">just waiting for its love mate.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">Like I waited for you</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">even before I knew that</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">you were calling for me too.</div><div style="font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0976563); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(191, 107, 82, 0.496094); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; "><br></div>Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-23413818950895530452013-07-17T19:05:00.001-07:002013-07-17T19:05:35.817-07:00Forever Young<div>The song lingers </div><div>in my memory,</div><div>fresh like the flowers you planted:</div><div>raw and remorseful</div><div>from all we never got to say,</div><div>all we never got to do.</div><div>John Denver said it well,</div><div>though I doubt he meant</div><div>FOREVER</div><div>On a bike,</div><div>not a jet plane.</div><div>How your eyes lit up</div><div>like candles after a storm</div><div>when you would ride;</div><div>not a care in the world.</div><div>Smiling eyes</div><div>like Kizzy's:</div><div>your faithful companion.</div><div>That's how I choose to </div><div>remember you:</div><div>carefree and innocent,</div><div>beautifull and young.</div>Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-74489630091444537102012-06-26T05:16:00.001-07:002012-06-26T05:16:17.180-07:00When war begins<br />When war begins<br />Nobody thinks about the ending<br />And the thousands who<br />Will be affected...<br />Displaced<br />Or <br />Dismembered.<br /><br />Instead,<br />Those responsible<br />Blindly attack<br />Beating their chests,<br />Banging their drums,<br />Hoping<br />For <br />Justice.<br /><br />Everyone <br />Suffers in the end,<br />And we promise <br />to learn from our mistakes.<br />Years go by,<br />Amnesia strikes again,<br />And we conveniently <br />Forget our promise<br />To humanity.<br /><br />It begins again<br />Just like before,<br />And ends without resolve.<br />The world is again<br />Connected only<br />By the communal<br />Tears that fall.<br /><br />- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad<br /><p class='blogpress_location'>Location:<a href='http://maps.google.com/maps?q=Rte%20752,Sion%20Farm,US%20Virgin%20Islands%4017.760952%2C-64.728517&z=10'>Rte 752,Sion Farm,US Virgin Islands</a></p>Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-40622168834751530142012-02-26T06:39:00.005-08:002012-02-26T07:06:05.533-08:00playlistthe tunes that <br />forced your body <br />to keep rolling<br />in and out of bed<br />for 68 years <br />and 358 days<br /><br />stay shuffled<br /><br />it's as if i'm listening <br />to your journal<br />with retrospective <br />melody<br /><br />moving and grooving<br />to the sounds<br />that made you <br />work that body<br />into miraculous recovery<br />every time it was beat down<br /><br />I thought the music <br />would stop<br />the day you left<br /><br />but then I stumbled<br />upon your ipod<br />and there you are<br />again<br /><br />announcing your presence<br />song and rhyme <br />beating happiness<br />into my heartJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-88081776088789024972012-01-11T05:49:00.000-08:002012-01-30T18:51:21.172-08:00Goodbye<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvqhSqa_CzAIBL91Ojhh5w2ZNsd6LegC_FOYOInBG-RAkzrxrp_3u0xPJFwFSkqdX_w0f5QKVzkz03X_Uk4ggMq3XQovRfy1EwqFaRc8BvzH1r011Ks0Z5-aOB89npytL_KW8u8ZNiq-4/s1600/Daddy.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvqhSqa_CzAIBL91Ojhh5w2ZNsd6LegC_FOYOInBG-RAkzrxrp_3u0xPJFwFSkqdX_w0f5QKVzkz03X_Uk4ggMq3XQovRfy1EwqFaRc8BvzH1r011Ks0Z5-aOB89npytL_KW8u8ZNiq-4/s320/Daddy.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5703622845774619186" /></a><br />You come in flashes,<br />taking my hand at times<br />or simply whispering my name.<br /><br />Memories wash over me,<br />flooding my soul<br />like a river.<br /><br />But then it is dry again,<br />and I find myself grasping <br />to recall:<br /><br />your voice<br />your touch<br />your smell <br />your essence<br /><br />SLC feels empty;<br />somber and stifled;<br />lonely and still.<br /><br />A great man has left,<br /><br />to return home<br />to all that was before<br />and shall come after.<br /><br />I love you Dad,and I miss<br />your "Top of the Mornings"<br /><br />Rest in Peace, <br />until we meet again.Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-22613689304665483342011-07-17T19:38:00.000-07:002011-07-17T19:53:33.986-07:00Withdrawalit's happening again<br />you: tied down to the bed<br />with tubes and turmoil<br />me: crying and pacing<br />with medicinal hoplessness<br /><br />this time the madness <br />isn't leaving you<br />and i'm left with fragments<br /><br />memories of the good you<br />but more of the bad you<br />spill recklessly over me<br /><br />my anger defeated by sadness<br />my hopes defeated by reality<br /><br />time ticks away slowly<br />and i'm caught between<br />its irrelevant hands<br /><br />wishing it would somehow <br />end differently but <br />knowing it will inevitably <br />end up with you coming home<br />and thrashing through the house<br />for the final, hidden bottleJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-67740467732951894072011-06-23T04:07:00.000-07:002011-06-23T04:11:18.962-07:00The ghost of poetry <br />floats haltingly by me,<br />haunting my creative mind.<br /><br />Words slip through me<br />faltering and failing -<br />robbed of my inability<br />to create a stanza.<br /><br />The ghost steals my insight.<br /><br />Perhaps I have been<br />flirting with the devil <br />for too long.<br /><br />But I'm coming home, <br />rounding the bend to <br />a place without hauntings.Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-69864142332502877792011-01-20T06:13:00.000-08:002011-01-20T06:26:00.978-08:00हेल्पIt seeps through my brain <br />and covers me with darkness<br />for hours - sometimes days<br /><br />The pain has become <br />a familiar foe -<br />I wonder if I ever existed<br /><br />Or has it always been <br />this phantom stealing <br />my thoughts and erasing me?<br /><br />Memories come and go <br />like sunrises - only <br />lasting for a moment <br /><br />I know I'm in there <br />somewhere, beneath<br />this cloud of murkiness<br /><br />Migraine Migraine<br />What have you done <br />to my former self?<br /><br />I guess I should <br />go back to sleep<br />and maybe I will find meJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-85353941524538248412010-12-30T11:23:00.000-08:002010-12-30T11:48:47.345-08:00New Year's ResolutionThe essence of being<br />seasonless during the <br />winter month of <br />December haunts me<br /><br />Snow-capped mountains,<br />and children sledding;<br />trucks plowing, <br />and men shoveling<br /><br />Images that are<br />merely memories,<br />appear in my mind's<br />rear-view mirror - <br /><br />Fading in the<br />distance like <br />the narrow streets<br />in St. Croix <br /><br />As I drive these<br />littered streets<br />I let it all <br />fall behind <br /><br />Living now <br />- this moment -<br />commands me<br />more than ever<br /><br />Yet I cannot <br />seem to let <br />the yesterdays go <br />and the todays beginJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-70633792031132068612010-11-17T11:43:00.000-08:002010-11-17T12:03:51.389-08:00Post Traumatic WHAT?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs5Rw7Svw3soZiHMz97IhgPnt4yaXjGFskGQnkIEx3SzemMwkb3VmJhdhr1lUitV1PZf0hZibqFU1Qqo6naHTAWbhrWNshi2l91IxF1KBoriCMOHeD7G6fLsmZ1WFYviqv8aKHvR4H-88/s1600/my+house.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" 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remembering<br />the horrible<br />the terrible<br />the despicable <br />can we truly forgetJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-15163873559813557332010-11-04T06:39:00.000-07:002010-11-04T06:41:19.299-07:00InsomniaThe notes of your <br />heart ring through <br />my head - beating<br />thoughts like the drums <br />of sadness you play<br /><br />"Boom Boom Boom"<br /> - they pound - <br />leaving me tossing <br />through another<br />sleepless night<br /><br />Oh how I await the<br />day for your melodious <br />sounds to cease <br />so that I may finally<br />close my eyes <br />and be left <br />in silenceJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-39540131787469308502010-10-03T11:04:00.000-07:002010-10-03T11:20:27.608-07:00Humble Me<a 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rising <br />suns are a reminder<br />that love still shines <br />and lifts me up<br />from my<br />despairJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-19329764248013692792010-09-19T09:10:00.000-07:002010-09-19T09:21:33.969-07:00ApologyI play you <br />back and forth <br />like a pinball<br />changing from <br />good to bad<br />happy to sad<br />in an instant<br /><br />I throw my <br />brown frown<br />on you <br />like you're<br />the ground <br />when really<br />I should praise you,<br />give you a crown<br /><br />I crumble inside<br />to think that <br />I made you cry<br />because of my <br />fucked up mind<br />pulling me <br />everywhere<br />but to the present<br />where you <br />gave me a gift,<br />symmetry and heaven<br /><br />I will give you back <br />the real me - <br />the one underneath<br />so we can be free,<br />instead of hostages<br />caught somewhere between <br />the seen and unseenJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-39361832227681615392010-06-26T10:31:00.000-07:002010-06-26T11:01:56.150-07:00My Tug of WarShine on me<br />now<br /><br />Open this<br />heart<br /><br />Make it feel<br />hope<br /><br />It gets stuck<br />still - <br /><br />In between<br />sun<br /><br />And cloudy<br />rain<br /><br />Can you fix <br />me<br /><br />again before<br />blue<br /><br />wraps itself<br />in?<br /><br />Or have I<br />lost<br /><br />you again<br />friend?<br /><br />Sunrise save<br />me<br /><br />Before I <br />fall<br /><br />Inside these <br />thoughts<br /><br />of lonely<br />dread...<br /><br />Before you<br />came<br /><br />Sun left me<br />burnt<br /><br />But now your<br />light<br /><br />warms my cold<br />heart<br /><br />and I am <br />free<br /><br />safe from<br 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<br />Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-12281808917605820822010-04-28T19:06:00.001-07:002010-05-02T10:04:57.398-07:00Soul's Whisper<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_gaedwcKWvxq1tAPB0ZGYTJ9jhUS4LcMDsMOYCMJY7BMycd7IZfNkxAlfz0vWPS4y5ukqfs03oXtXV17d603OknuqmOHR7swnvnQP2sEk3qvdfW28i2Jq37MC12DfYN9zJ7QIv3ZLgSc/s1600/Picture+181.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5465967415328619762" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_gaedwcKWvxq1tAPB0ZGYTJ9jhUS4LcMDsMOYCMJY7BMycd7IZfNkxAlfz0vWPS4y5ukqfs03oXtXV17d603OknuqmOHR7swnvnQP2sEk3qvdfW28i2Jq37MC12DfYN9zJ7QIv3ZLgSc/s320/Picture+181.jpg" /></a><br /><div>The wind in my heart blows<br />through me with fervor<br />unleashed from complacency,<br />taking the world by storm.<br /><br />The wind in my heart carries<br />me from yesterday into today,<br />providing strength to move<br />these moments as they pass.<br /><br />The wind in my heart forces<br />the freedom within to awaken,<br />allowing personal integrity<br />to wrap itself around me.<br /><br />The wind in my heart guides<br />my soul with its whisper,<br />blowing through my body<br />as your love surrounds me.</div>Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-37212757913240576452010-04-05T09:08:00.000-07:002010-05-02T10:05:52.542-07:00Bring Me to Silence<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3QLFrfglJj69aUrftJvK-taqyfzWLZvFfoDPByfo1S7Yz3oH-J7otPmXNKlwnZPOtddzZZW-1qAB6IaF33VsYStQRyYdUG4yDH1WRa137M8xLNkRxomNTwU9EZfQyRt2465QUupxr1zQ/s1600/kamas.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 180px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5456691466123430418" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3QLFrfglJj69aUrftJvK-taqyfzWLZvFfoDPByfo1S7Yz3oH-J7otPmXNKlwnZPOtddzZZW-1qAB6IaF33VsYStQRyYdUG4yDH1WRa137M8xLNkRxomNTwU9EZfQyRt2465QUupxr1zQ/s320/kamas.jpg" /></a><br /><div>The turmoil begins</div><div>Wreaking havoc with my mind</div><br /><div></div><div>I wait for stillness to arrive</div><div>Like a forrest waits for rain - </div><br /><div></div><div>Quiet and desperate</div><div>Craving freedom and life</div><br /><div></div><div>Thoughts move through me </div><div>With a wild impatience</div><br /><div></div><div>I'm left here wondering again:</div><div>Can you save me?</div><br /><div></div><div>From me?</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div>Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-86365359222446594342010-03-27T22:13:00.000-07:002010-03-27T22:40:35.910-07:00Sunrise<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijoG1vMQ_lCwB1YpFVBoh2DFUWVnZibcaV5eoNuuZyT6gxVDa3cffkhMOKf7plrRlMlY6coRFsga8tOcVkR4D8Jj2tIBwGUsM0D7fYqfcZhqFMeftWWbDvCnuh8Jbt12gc9hFktIzQUTk/s1600/xanadu-island-resort-default.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijoG1vMQ_lCwB1YpFVBoh2DFUWVnZibcaV5eoNuuZyT6gxVDa3cffkhMOKf7plrRlMlY6coRFsga8tOcVkR4D8Jj2tIBwGUsM0D7fYqfcZhqFMeftWWbDvCnuh8Jbt12gc9hFktIzQUTk/s320/xanadu-island-resort-default.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5453555233865543266" border="0" /></a><br />As I sit in silence<br />Learning from afar<br />Every place becomes<br />Xanadu<br /><br />A Kingdom of purity&<br />Nostalgic hope<br />Dare to dream -OR<br /><br />Realize that truth<br />Initially scares us<br />Away....<br /><br />Crying for moreJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-1066751071463448592010-03-12T07:26:00.000-08:002010-03-12T07:55:46.154-08:00Doubting HeartI sit and wait for change<br />Like a plant waits for its moment<br />In the sun<br /><br />Hoping the rays of light<br />Will lead me happily into the<br />Future<br /><br />I ache to live without regret<br />Full of life and inspiration<br />True and free<br /><br />Clinging to pieces of myself<br />That have been lost<br />For so long<br /><br />I wrap myself in the dream<br />That love is not an<br />Aberration<br /><br />Forcing the light upon me<br />In a tunnel full<br />Of darkness<br /><br />I pray for guidance<br />Strength, insight<br />And Serenity<br /><br />Questioning the One<br />To whom I pray:<br />Are you real?<br /><br />I ask the Universe<br />To set me free -<br />Let me be meJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-48640676597514264082010-03-05T17:35:00.000-08:002010-03-05T17:46:09.849-08:00StopSlipping<br />into self-pity,<br />silently shedding<br />the sentiments<br />of yesterday<br />and embracing<br />the shadows<br />of today<br /><br />Seeking<br />sorrow<br />and sympathy<br />so that you<br />can see<br />how you've<br />emotionally<br />seduced me<br /><br />Stealing<br />a piece of my soul<br />sharing it<br />with so many<br />while stripping me<br />slowly<br /><br />of meJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-63103762549013160462010-02-14T06:40:00.000-08:002010-02-14T06:45:43.419-08:00HollowLike a vacant house<br />My body's been stripped<br />Naked<br /><br />Awaiting the day it can<br />Be clothed again<br />With love<br /><br />And hope<br /><br />It sits housing a soul<br />Full of regret<br />And sorrow<br /><br />Bruised from within<br /><br />Hollow<br />and<br />EmptyJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-8809098067501202052010-01-19T04:08:00.000-08:002010-01-19T04:11:14.545-08:00ERASEDCaught somewhere in between<br />reality and the unseen<br /><br />where havoc is the norm<br />and quietude begs form<br /><br />"Fall down with me," you plead<br /><br />Please ,<br />Just let me Breathe<br /><br />You've left a vacancy here<br />Where everything that used to be clear<br /><br />is gone - fallen somewhere else<br />erased and no longer felt<br /><br />I am just a fragment<br />aching to remember<br />what used to be<br /><br />but no longer clings to meJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-4139642627988654132010-01-08T17:27:00.000-08:002010-02-14T06:46:23.320-08:00For MatthewMy wonderful cousin Matthew died last Monday - December 28th at age 35. He was a beautiful person, a wonderful chef, and like a brother to me. It's so hard to even write about, the grief that I feel for his mother, who lost her only other child, Dylan, just three years ago. After Dyl died, their father died just 6 weeks later, and it seemed that the grief was too tremendous for both my Aunt Pam and Matthew to bear, but they managed to struggle through the turmoil despite their pain. Now Matthew is gone, and I can't imagine why Pam must bear this sorrow for a second time. Why???<br /><br />I certainly don't know the answer and it's really hard to imagine why God would want a mother to suffer this way - EVER. There was a quote today that made their deaths seem less permanent - and allowed me to make it a few hours without crying. It said "How do you know if your mission in life has been accomplished? If you're still alive, it hasn't been." So perhaps Dylan was here to show people about true compassion and love for animals, and he did this in his short 29 years. Maybe Matthew was here to show people how food can be transformed into a world of its own, full of perfection, and splendor. I <em>DO </em>know that they weren't here long enough, and I miss them both terribly.<br /><br />The following poem came to me two nights after Matt's death - I like to hope he was trying to communicate with me because the same thing happened at his brother's funeral:<br /><br />New Beginning<br /><br />My body has left you<br />In silence<br />I had become a hostage to its<br />Limitations –<br /><br />But do not weep,<br />I am now free<br /><br />Saved from this tired game of life<br /><br />I have floated<br />Into a space where dreams<br />Can be made –<br />And masterpieces accomplished<br /><br />Where pain is only a thought<br />And love is my truth<br /><br />Stop now<br />for just a moment<br />and remember me:<br /><br />When your taste buds explore<br />Your next gourmet meal<br />Think of me<br />And the small dreams I lived while here<br /><br />When a gentle breeze touches your cheek<br />Or a warm sunset rests upon the earth,<br /><br />Remember me<br />I am now free<br /><br />Able to share my truth<br />With you from afar<br /><br />I am just a thought away -<br /><br />So close your eyes<br />Remember me<br /><br />I am now free<br />I am now freeJackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5952389035146114031.post-50398293286301454782009-12-18T21:23:00.000-08:002009-12-18T21:26:41.895-08:00Collect MeAs I watch you spill over the room<br />and flitter between here and there<br />and everywhere in between,<br /><br />I realize you have become my light source,<br />and I feed upon your energy<br />like a dying plant<br />awaiting its moment in the sun.<br /><br />Sometimes I shout from my head<br />that I ache for you to collect a piece of me<br />as you breeze through my life.<br /><br />But then my mouth fills the room<br />with empty air,<br />and you disappear<br />once again - leaving me to wonder:<br /><br />Do you even exist?Jackiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15033596940421659154noreply@blogger.com2