Thursday, July 18, 2013

Song Bird

It sings melodiously
high up on the tree, its voice
fills the air with nostalgia.
Memories from yesterdays
when we thought we knew it all
and frolicked to harmonies
played out by hundreds of them.
The sounds of orchestral bliss,
that followed us to the ground
where we would lie on the grass 
dreaming of what they could do
with those calls of emotion.
Then they would fly away fast,
in mass movement together
in an extraordinary 
escape from the whistler
who thought they might understand.
Perhaps they did; flew away
just to tell the other birds
what the girl  wanted to say:
that she loved their songs always,
and wanted them just to stay.
But then the sun would go down,
and we would run home to eat
forgetting about the one
who stayed to sing a lonesome
melody for the girl who 
understood what true love was:
it was you and me in dreams
from the future or the past.
We knew the birds and the bees
would lead us to each other 
someday, sending us love songs.
That's what I imagine now,
wIth the solitary bird
high up on it's lonely perch,
just waiting for its love mate.
Like I waited for you
even before I knew that
you were calling for me too.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Forever Young

The song lingers 
in my memory,
fresh like the flowers you planted:
raw and remorseful
from all we never got to say,
all we never got to do.
John Denver said it well,
though I doubt he meant
FOREVER
On a bike,
not a jet plane.
How your eyes lit up
like candles after a storm
when you would ride;
not a care in the world.
Smiling eyes
like Kizzy's:
your faithful companion.
That's how I choose to 
remember you:
carefree and innocent,
beautifull and young.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

When war begins


When war begins
Nobody thinks about the ending
And the thousands who
Will be affected...
Displaced
Or
Dismembered.

Instead,
Those responsible
Blindly attack
Beating their chests,
Banging their drums,
Hoping
For
Justice.

Everyone
Suffers in the end,
And we promise
to learn from our mistakes.
Years go by,
Amnesia strikes again,
And we conveniently
Forget our promise
To humanity.

It begins again
Just like before,
And ends without resolve.
The world is again
Connected only
By the communal
Tears that fall.

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Sunday, February 26, 2012

playlist

the tunes that
forced your body
to keep rolling
in and out of bed
for 68 years
and 358 days

stay shuffled

it's as if i'm listening
to your journal
with retrospective
melody

moving and grooving
to the sounds
that made you
work that body
into miraculous recovery
every time it was beat down

I thought the music
would stop
the day you left

but then I stumbled
upon your ipod
and there you are
again

announcing your presence
song and rhyme
beating happiness
into my heart

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Goodbye


You come in flashes,
taking my hand at times
or simply whispering my name.

Memories wash over me,
flooding my soul
like a river.

But then it is dry again,
and I find myself grasping
to recall:

your voice
your touch
your smell
your essence

SLC feels empty;
somber and stifled;
lonely and still.

A great man has left,

to return home
to all that was before
and shall come after.

I love you Dad,and I miss
your "Top of the Mornings"

Rest in Peace,
until we meet again.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Withdrawal

it's happening again
you: tied down to the bed
with tubes and turmoil
me: crying and pacing
with medicinal hoplessness

this time the madness
isn't leaving you
and i'm left with fragments

memories of the good you
but more of the bad you
spill recklessly over me

my anger defeated by sadness
my hopes defeated by reality

time ticks away slowly
and i'm caught between
its irrelevant hands

wishing it would somehow
end differently but
knowing it will inevitably
end up with you coming home
and thrashing through the house
for the final, hidden bottle

Thursday, June 23, 2011

The ghost of poetry
floats haltingly by me,
haunting my creative mind.

Words slip through me
faltering and failing -
robbed of my inability
to create a stanza.

The ghost steals my insight.

Perhaps I have been
flirting with the devil
for too long.

But I'm coming home,
rounding the bend to
a place without hauntings.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

हेल्प

It seeps through my brain
and covers me with darkness
for hours - sometimes days

The pain has become
a familiar foe -
I wonder if I ever existed

Or has it always been
this phantom stealing
my thoughts and erasing me?

Memories come and go
like sunrises - only
lasting for a moment

I know I'm in there
somewhere, beneath
this cloud of murkiness

Migraine Migraine
What have you done
to my former self?

I guess I should
go back to sleep
and maybe I will find me

Thursday, December 30, 2010

New Year's Resolution

The essence of being
seasonless during the
winter month of
December haunts me

Snow-capped mountains,
and children sledding;
trucks plowing,
and men shoveling

Images that are
merely memories,
appear in my mind's
rear-view mirror -

Fading in the
distance like
the narrow streets
in St. Croix

As I drive these
littered streets
I let it all
fall behind

Living now
- this moment -
commands me
more than ever

Yet I cannot
seem to let
the yesterdays go
and the todays begin

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Post Traumatic WHAT?


Last night I curled up
in a ball and learned
for the first time
what PTSD really is

A disease that rots a person
from the inside -
tears their wounds open
like an amputated limb

Last night I learned
that 8 years can feel
like only 8 seconds
and what time machines do:

They transport you back
to the moment your brain
stopped working and
your heart stopped beating

Correctly

Last night I learned
about war and tried
to remember what
peace felt like

The profundity of
these lessons seep
into my dreams
and I am rattled

For only by remembering
the horrible
the terrible
the despicable
can we truly forget

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Insomnia

The notes of your
heart ring through
my head - beating
thoughts like the drums
of sadness you play

"Boom Boom Boom"
- they pound -
leaving me tossing
through another
sleepless night

Oh how I await the
day for your melodious
sounds to cease
so that I may finally
close my eyes
and be left
in silence

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Humble Me


How can I weep
When the sun rises
every day and shines
its warmth upon me?

My lonely friend
sadness has left
me again,

But do not worry
I am not alone

My constant companion
nostalgia has been
wrapping itself
around my soul
and giving me hope

these rising
suns are a reminder
that love still shines
and lifts me up
from my
despair

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Apology

I play you
back and forth
like a pinball
changing from
good to bad
happy to sad
in an instant

I throw my
brown frown
on you
like you're
the ground
when really
I should praise you,
give you a crown

I crumble inside
to think that
I made you cry
because of my
fucked up mind
pulling me
everywhere
but to the present
where you
gave me a gift,
symmetry and heaven

I will give you back
the real me -
the one underneath
so we can be free,
instead of hostages
caught somewhere between
the seen and unseen

Saturday, June 26, 2010

My Tug of War

Shine on me
now

Open this
heart

Make it feel
hope

It gets stuck
still -

In between
sun

And cloudy
rain

Can you fix
me

again before
blue

wraps itself
in?

Or have I
lost

you again
friend?

Sunrise save
me

Before I
fall

Inside these
thoughts

of lonely
dread...

Before you
came

Sun left me
burnt

But now your
light

warms my cold
heart

and I am
free

safe from
me

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

The Battle


Come wrestle my solid heart
Throw those words at me again
It's nothing new - you fall apart
and I am left to pretend
That you will change and love me,
without my having to plead

I lost that battle long ago
You picked her grain and spirit
and wrapped her from head to toe
While I became the culprit
of hope and tireless shame
Just an empty shell to blame

This is the last time for me
the end - my final goodbye
Time to let go and be free
mend the love that's gone awry
and remember the good man
that once held my fragile hand

The battle is over now
the man with nine lives has won
stumble and fall - take a bow
your star performance is done
the poor frail body survives
but your mind takes a nosedive

Goodbye old man - -
Goodbye old man

Monday, May 24, 2010

This Moment

Capture it Now

Remember it Always

For there won't be another

Like it - Ever again

Hold it Close

Breathe it in

Feel the Pain or

Pleasure it brings

See

Smell

Touch

Taste

This moment

It will be gone

In an instant

Love

Every

Second

Live

Every

Minute

And

You

Might

Just be lucky

enough to make it

to the next moment

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Soul's Whisper


The wind in my heart blows
through me with fervor
unleashed from complacency,
taking the world by storm.

The wind in my heart carries
me from yesterday into today,
providing strength to move
these moments as they pass.

The wind in my heart forces
the freedom within to awaken,
allowing personal integrity
to wrap itself around me.

The wind in my heart guides
my soul with its whisper,
blowing through my body
as your love surrounds me.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Bring Me to Silence


The turmoil begins
Wreaking havoc with my mind

I wait for stillness to arrive
Like a forrest waits for rain -

Quiet and desperate
Craving freedom and life

Thoughts move through me
With a wild impatience

I'm left here wondering again:
Can you save me?

From me?



Saturday, March 27, 2010

Sunrise


As I sit in silence
Learning from afar
Every place becomes
Xanadu

A Kingdom of purity&
Nostalgic hope
Dare to dream -OR

Realize that truth
Initially scares us
Away....

Crying for more

Friday, March 12, 2010

Doubting Heart

I sit and wait for change
Like a plant waits for its moment
In the sun

Hoping the rays of light
Will lead me happily into the
Future

I ache to live without regret
Full of life and inspiration
True and free

Clinging to pieces of myself
That have been lost
For so long

I wrap myself in the dream
That love is not an
Aberration

Forcing the light upon me
In a tunnel full
Of darkness

I pray for guidance
Strength, insight
And Serenity

Questioning the One
To whom I pray:
Are you real?

I ask the Universe
To set me free -
Let me be me